“...bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ;” 2 Corinthians 10:5
When my husband deserted me for another woman, Satan was relentless in his bombardment of negative thoughts and lies. He said, God does not love you! You are a failure, and no one loves you. You'd be better off dead – end it! You're not worth anything. You have nothing left to live for. To my shame, at that time in my life I was not convinced that God loved me. Corrie Ten Boom? Yes. Billy Graham? Yes. Joni Eareckson Tada? Yes. But me? Growing up I was mostly exposed to the wrath of God, so Satan wreaked havoc with me on this. I told myself over and over that God loves me, cares about me, sees me, but I couldn't seem to get those thoughts from my head to my heart. I discovered that when I felt loved and cared for by other people, it was easier to believe God's love; but much of the time, I felt abandoned and alone.
One day while I was praying, God allowed me to feel His love. It was absolutely exhilarating! I felt as though He just poured His love into and over me. With my spiritual eyes, I saw Jesus standing beside me. I didn't want this feeling to end, but I knew it couldn't last forever. I expected Him to walk away from me. Then He said to me, I will never, never, NEVER leave you or forsake you. Finally the truth of His love traveled from my head to my heart.
God may not give you this kind of experience, but by faith receive His love! His Word says, “Hereby perceive we the love of God, because he laid down his life for us...” I John 3:16.
His death is the only proof of His love we really need!